Playing songs at night that make you feel feelings of missing someone, when you’re not talking to em, is so fucking bitter sweet
Since my last self evaluation on here from two years ago, a lot’s changed and developed. I’m still a kid at heart; I honestly think maybe even more. Legos, kid shows, and simple eye illusions still fascinate me. I have a part time job again now and as shitty as it is, I can’t seem to quit it. Maybe it’s not so shitty then? I’m halfway through with college now; sorta? I’m slowly but surely getting on better terms with my brothers. I’ve put away with anything bad for my physical health; specifically cigarettes and I’ve even broken some bad habits. My body’s getting physically better but I’ve still got a little weight issue with making gains.
My girlfriend and I are approaching our 16 months and we’ve done so much together.
We’ve gone to museums and a wedding, celebrated July 4th and Christmas together, drove each other, and accomplished so many things together that I’ve never done with any special girl prior before. Kissing under fireworks and opening presents together used to be an unattainable fantasy for me. I even have facebook profile pictures with her! She’s bought me gifts and gotten me something for my birthday. I’ve never been given gifts, let alone a birthday gift from a significant other before. Our intimate moments truly are special and I can safely say with complete confidence that I’ve never loved so much before. I’ve literally gone the distance for her, and so has she. I plan to keep making her happy and share all of my time with her. I wanna share everything with her. I’m truly gratified that all the love and first moments that I’ve received, has been from her.
I know now in the future that when I look back, I’d be overjoyed to say that many of my legitimate firsts took place with her, and in just the right way too. Like how it’s supposed to be. Perfect in our own little way yaknow?
There are still many on and off day to day struggles, but there’s more good than bad now. And hey, life aint easy. It’s funny how just two years ago, I didn’t think my life would make it this far, and even become so much more satisfying. I’m in my early 20’s now and I can only hope to keep the strength that I’ve refined so far, to keep on going.
My name is Dominic T Q Nguyen
And I will keep going.
Track: Elastic Heart (feat. The Weeknd & Diplo)
Album: 1000 Forms of Fear
Please know that if you date me, I am a very touchy person. I will like to pet your head and hold your hand, rub your shoulders or hug you a lot. Simply put, to physically feel you in some way is very comforting to me and I can’t really apologize for it, it just feels natural to me and makes me happy.
But there’s nothing I’d want more than to try these new things and make more memories with my girlfriend here and now
it’s never gonna be easy, but 371 miles ain’t got nothin on us
sorry I’m taken
but you can be da side chick doe
Taking my boyfriend to a place with his interests and to see his reaction and excitement, makes me so fucking happy. I still remember his facial expressions and tone of speech and I just wish I could constantly take him to places he genuinely enjoys.
This is why she’s my forever girl